where do I fit in?

My mother keeps telling me she cant hear what was I talked about cause she thinks I mumbled.

I mostly believed half life thinking I do mumbled. It doesn't only buried my dream to appear as one of normal Amazing Race Asian contestants but makes me believe just it. I never be able to get better than this.

I begun to disappoint her ever since. But I cant blame her completely except for not doing anything about it. Only more reminders that I shouldn't mumble ever again. Only I need to be good in writing for a hind side. Lovely.

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